cause im just one of those ghosts.

been a strange couple weeks,
fights.
bitching.
fallouts.
breakups.
lies.
love.
heartbreak.
rumours.
broken friendships.

its taken almost two months,
since the 7th of may 2010,
that day, the same day, that i completely lost it,
to realise,
whats real,
whats actually here,
my real friends,
whats really worth it.
whats worth clinging onto.
and whats better to simply just let go of.

its still not so clear.
but its clear enough.
for now that is.

maybe its going to stop now.
although i highly doubt it.
i dont know,
nor do i care.
the fights dont bother me.
you lose people.
its life.
you learn to deal with it.
you get to a certain point with it, where you stop caring completely.
and i know have.
after that day.
the 2ND time you broke me.
i just stopped.
about everything.

there is probably only 2 people id geneuinly care about if they left.
and they know who they are.

oh well.
not like it matters.
just...

give me a summer,
without
the bitching
the fights
the fallouts
the rumours
the heart break
the lies.
and everything else.

give me a summer to look forward to. please.


we are just,
misguided ghosts.
travelling endless.
the ones we trusted the most,
pushed us far away.
and there's no one role,
we should not be the same.
but i'm just a ghost,
and still they echo me.
they echo me in circles. <3