the feel good drag.

ah you.
always you.
everything just seems to come back to you.
always checking your page.
just to see the new things you say,
or do.
hoping,
youd actually give an interest in me.
cause you dont,
you used to.
but that changed.
after those days away.
it changed,
and to be honest,
i wish itd never happened.
id still be seeing you, like normal.
id still be your baby.
youd still tell me the same words, over and over.
but you cant now.
i havent seen you,
and all i want,
is your hug.
your grip round me.
the saftey i feel when i have your arms round me.
i havent had it,
and im going crazy.

i used you.
i didnt want to.
i didnt mean to.
but i did.
and i know i did.
because , i couldnt make up my fucking mind.
and because i didnt make up my mind,
your no longer there.
and it hurts,
cause all i want is you back.
because if you were back,
id do it over.
itd be differently,
youd be mine, id be yours,
end of.
no ifs, no buts.
just you and me.
but i guess,
karmas coming back to bite me in the arse onces more.
i hate myself for what i did to you.
cause i know you geneiunly loved me.
or at least,
i think you did.
i did and do love you.
and i dont think this will change,
not now.
not after that.
that day.
it was meant to happen.
but then, it changed, after that.

oh well.
i had to learn.


its just amazing how things can change in such a small space of time.
how is it, that you became this and took over in such a small space of time?


Everyone in this town
is seeing somebody else.
Everybody's tired of someone
our eyes wander for help.
Prayers that need no answer now
I'm tired of who I am.
You were my greatest mistake
I fell in love with your sin
Your littlest sin. <3